Hi, I'm back ^^ 

enjoy;    

Whoa. It has been  a while. xD
I'm sorry!

& Pamm! I miss youuu!

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The only thing keeping me here,
is not knowing where else to go.

Your silence; it's suffocating.
but your words may be worse.

What can tomorrow bring if today I'm losing you?

The past is just reference.
Used as inspiration for the next sentence.

lately it's been hard to see your face.
my heart just can't bare to see you without wanting to break.

it's either the bravest thing i have done or
the most idiotic. it's hard to tell the difference.

I'm sorry. I have been really busy with school, i really didn't have the time to update.

Have fun in Mexico Pammyy! <333
I'm sorry.

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I guess you have more important things to do
than talk to the girl that’s in love with you.

I promise to be naive if you promise to be convincing.

It kills me to know that you're online & you won't talk to me.
It's just time I realize that I don't mean anything to you-
& never really did.

& I'm going to be with you someday,
only because you said I couldn't.

When we meet again, we'll probably talk about
the weather, because that's what people do
when they grow apart, and that's what
we'll do when we grow apart.

&& when you're thinking of giving up;
remember why you've held on for so long

It was just one of those moments
that belonged in a black and white photo.

The sooner you realize things will
never be the same again, the sooner
you can move on.

have you ever actually wished for pain ?
it's like you're numb for so long,
and all the bottled-up tears are just screaming
to come out, and you just want to get it over with.

All she wanted was someone who understood
Someone who listened
Someone who cheered when she said 'This is me'

(By Pam/XxXNotPerfectXxX <3)

She slept last night.
Something she hadn't done in a very long time since then.
You know what she dreamed of?
Herself sitting in a 2 seat-chair, alone, with nothing to think of
But those last words and that unfaitful kiss.

(By Pam/XxXNotPerfectXxX <3)

Even if we never talk again,
remember that I'm forever changed by
who you are and what you meant to me.

She wasn't bitter, but she was sad.
But it was the hopeful kind of sad,
the kind of sad that just takes time.

Tell me please;
That when you see me...
You feel a little empty too.

He's just a boy who doesn't know
what's in front of him.
&& She's just a girl who never learned
how to let go.

Happy new year!

And thanks for all the comments and subscribtions!

♥

maybe if my heart stops beating,
it won't hurt so much.

And you're afraid to show a smile
cause' you don't want people
to overlook the hurt you have in your heart.
And you are so scared that they will start to believe
that the pain you feel isn't real.

These memories are just stolen moments
i captured in my heart, but passed us by too quickly.

There's a kind of emptiness that can fill you. There's a kind of hunger
that can eat you up. There's a cold and darker side of the moonlight.
And there's a lonely side of love.

I love how you quietly lie to yourself
as your whole world is falling apart.

What's the point of saying goodbye
if you know he won't even miss you?

Writing a poem is like seeing shapes in a cloud;
the person next you hardly ever knows
what the hell you're talking about.

Her heart still slightly ached for
the one she met, but never quite knew.

it was one of those times you feel a sense of loss,
even though you didn't have something in the first
place. i guess that's what disappointment is;
a sense of loss for something you never had.

I'm sorry everyone, i really am. Here's an update (probably not as big as you'd hoped)
I promise it won't take so long next time.

I miss you too Pam! I'll send you a mail right after i'm done with this update! <33

Don't be so quick to judge me,
you only see what I choose to show.

The only way to accept an insult is to ignore it.
If you can't ignore it, top it.
If you can't top it, laugh at it.
If you can't laugh at it, you probably deserved it

If you could take it all back, make the memories disappear.

and there I go again,
believing in something that is probably
never going to happen

I hate how we don't talk
for weeks but then all
of a sudden you talk to
me again. & it's like
nothing happened &
I slowly start falling for
you all over again.

Somewhere deep in your heart
there's someone that you're dying to forget
but also living to remember.

there comes a point in your life when
you get tired of chasing everyone &
trying to fix things. its not giving up,
its realizing you dont need certain people

It's a lot easier to say you're angry,
than to admit you're hurt.

It's difficult
watching someone change
right in front of you,
but the hardest part is
remembering who they used to be.

Passion is knowing what you want
& never stopping until you have it.

maybe the best thing to do is
stop figuring our where you're going,
& just enjoy where youre at.

When you finally stop aiming for perfection,
you realize that it was a moving target all along.

 I think sometimes, you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you

Dont envy anybody.
Every person has something no other person has.
Develop that one thing in yourself & make it outstanding.

We ignore the ones who adore us,
adore the ones who ignore us,
love the ones who hurt us,
& hurt the ones that love us